Lead me, Guide me, Show me, Stand beside me as I go.
Let my hands be your hands, let my feet be your feet.
Lead my feet to become beautiful feet, that are willing and able to go where ever you may send them. No matter where, give me the courage I need to stay the course and complete the journey.
Guide my hands to become beautiful hands as you teach them to be hard working hands that touch where you want them to touch, leaving your handprints scattered all over the place.
Show me how to let go of myself and stand holding only on to you. Using only your strength to be the person who you sent me to be.
This past week I have been looking through my journal, reflecting on life and realizing what a blessing it is. As I read through I am amazed at all the changes that have taken place, especially those that have happened in the past four years. Four years ago though I thought I was happy I really was not as happy as I fooled myself into thinking I was. I know now that I was missing some one in my life and that some one was Jesus. What I also did not know at that time was is that in just two short months my life was going to be rocked and that I was going to be starting a new walk in life. One that would take me through many hills, valleys and loads of mountain tops. If someone would have came to me at that point in my life four years ago and told me all the things that have happened since then and that are still going on right now I would have never ever believed them. As journey through my journal this week I can see just what an amazing transformation and journey it has been. I can’t wait to find out what else God has in store. Today I am thankful.
Remember when I used to cry myself to sleep at night?
Remember when I was always running away but not knowing what I was running away from?
Remember when I used to search for happiness but never could quite seem to grasp it.
Remember when I searched and searched but never knew what it was that I was searching for?
Remember when I didn’t how to love myself or how to accept love that was given to me?
Remember when restlessness and panic were my normal way of life?
Remember when loneliness and sadness lingered within me?
Remember when I was angry and exhausted?
Remember when I just wanted to give up?
Where were you?
Where were you when I was falling apart?
Where were you when I was scared and alone?
Where were you when I needed a friend?
Where were you when I was crying?
Where were you then?
You were right here.
You were always here.
You were here but I couldn’t see you because my eyes were closed.
You were here calling to me, but I covered my ears because I didn’t want to hear.
You were here trying to be my friend, but my heart was to cold to let you in.
I pushed you aside and stumbled around on my own for such a long time.
I was falling farther and farther, feeling lost and alone, thinking nobody cared,
but you were still here,
Though you allowed me go my own way,
You were still here reaching out your hand, always ready to help me should I decide I wanted to stand.
You were here through it all.
Always right here…
waiting for me.
Remember when I took that first step toward you? It was so hard for me to trust.
Remember when I thought I wasn’t good enough because I was such a broken mess?
Remember when you took my hand in yours and told me you loved me anyway?
Despite all my anger, disbelief and rejection of you, you still welcomed me with open arms. Loving me for who I was, forgiving all that I had done.
Remember when you showed me that what I had been longing and searching for was always right here waiting for me?
Remember when you picked me up and started putting the pieces back together again?
Remember when you breathed love, hope and joy back into my life?
Remember when you never gave up on me?
Dear Jesus, Thank you for never giving up on me. Thank you for giving your life to save my life.
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16
Dear Readers. Today I would like to wish you a Happy Thanksgiving! Even if you live in a country where Thanksgiving is not a holiday, Thanksgiving can always be celebrated. So today take some time to take note of your blessings and give thanks to the Lord.
Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever. Psalm 107:1
As I wait for you
I hear the ticking of the clock,
the sound is so loud
your voice is blocked.
It’s hard to hear you
when the ticking’s so loud.
Though I try and try
your voice can’t be found.
Dear precious Lord,
please send your voice
to drown out the noise.
Please show me you are here
and dry up my tears.
As the clock keeps ticking,
I will be waiting and listening.
Today I woke up wondering, why I woke up in my nice warm house when a father across the ocean wakes in a pile of rubble and mud. Why am I allowed to go on about my day, living and experiencing joy while the man weeps in grief at the thought of everything that he has lost. His home, his wife and his children swept out to sea by the storm. I can’t help but wonder…did they go peacefully? Did they have time to know what was happening and be frightened or did they just swim right into the open arms of Jesus?
If God is for us why does something like this happen? Why did a friend of mine just get a cancer diagnosis and while another friend suffers from depression? People are hungry, homeless, abused and disasters happen. The list goes on for miles, people are suffering every single day. Sometimes I just want to scream, “It’s not fair!” But who am I to decide what is fair and what is not? We all die, it’s inevitable. Wouldn’t it be nice if when we died we just went to sleep in our bed at night and opened our eyes in heaven? No suffering or pain. What if life was always rosy? How would we behave? Would we turn to God as much? Would we still pray? Would we still help one another?
I visited a boy in Haiti last March. He had nothing of monetary value but he had himself and a whole lot of love; and he was ready and willing to give all of himself away. I also visited a Mother who had aids and a family of 7, she had a one room shack for a home but opened it up to us as if it were a mansion inviting us in offering us a seat. She gave more in love to us in that short time than I have given in my whole life. To me their lives seem unfair yet they were thankful and joyful and ready to unselfishly share it all with me.
When things like the typhoon that hit the Philippines happen we don’t understand, but its also the times like this that God shows the most. People are coming together from all over the world to give help to their fellow man. As the broken pick up the broken pieces of their lives, life keeps going on and God keeps going on. Forever His love and strength will show in those who are trying to put the pieces back together again and also in those who come to their aid. Many of us can’t physically go there to help, so we pray. We pray so loud that our voices blend together as one. We pray that God will give strength and healing to those who were hurt. We pray that nations will come together and in the mighty name of Jesus and that God will show many blessings and miracles in the midst of suffering left from the storm. Most of all we pray that in the center of it all people will come to know Jesus Christ because after all is said and done he is everything that anyone truly needs.
If you would like to help the people of the Philippines Compassion International has set up a donation page to help get emergency relief to children in the effected areas. This fund will go toward things such as food, clothing, water, and temporary shelter and for providing counseling and spiritual support. Just click the banner below to help.
Ephesians 3:20-21 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
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We are called to love others. Not just the easy ones but also the hard ones. We should love those people who we don’t quite know how to deal with. Those who are broken and hurting. Those who get on our nerves and even those people who are cranky who we sometimes feel don’t deserve our love.
We are called to love everyone and that includes the messy people. Loving messy people sometimes can be scary and sometimes quite hard to do. We don’t get to pick and choose who God gives us to love. We are just to love them as he loves us. We are all messy people at times and thankfully no matter how messy I am God still loves me.
Dear Lord thank you for the messy people you have put in my life because they show me I am messy too.
We love because he first loved us – John 4:19
Have you ever been so heart broken about something that you can not find the words to say what you feel you need to say? That is how I felt after watching this video…
It’s so heartbreaking that something like this is happening in our world.
Because South Sudan’s president, Omar al-Bashir still continues to attack his own citizens, 190,000 people have fled across the border to Northern South Sudan where they are now living in refugee camps. People still pour into the camps daily, traveling for days without food and water, barefoot and sick. Many never make it, they die and are buried along the way. Thousands of children arrive in the camps with severe acute malnutrition. Medical care in the area is scarce. Access the clean water, lack of sanitation and hygiene are huge challenges.
Today is blog action day. Today myself and thousands of other bloggers around the world are teaming up with Samaritan’s purse to try to help raise awareness of this ongoing crises in South Sudan. Samaritan’s purse is making a difference. They are making a difference by working with partners inside the refugee camps helping to bring basic needs to those who are now living inside these camps. The needs include food, water, medical care and the love of Jesus Christ.
To see what is being done to help those inside the refugee camps please watch this video.
Today I am asking YOU for your help.
Today I am asking you to:
- Pray for the violence to end and peace for all of Sudan.
- Give as God calls you to help the displaced people of South Sudan.
- Help us spread the word and raise awareness by asking others to get involved. You can write a blog about the crises in South Sudan or if you would like you may share this blog of any of the links listed below.
You may feel like a tiny whisper in a huge world but together we can speak loudly and make our voices heard.
Together we CAN make a difference.
Thank you for reading and thank you for helping the people of South Sudan,
Some people do not know the difference between the publish button and the preview button? You guessed it! That someone would be me. If you are an email subscriber to my blog and received a post about South Sudan without the title that was the draft I am working on. The finished blog will be coming soon and it is a very important blog so please read the updated version when it comes.
Thank you for your patience
I have been down and defeated, broken and afraid.
Sometimes it feels like life is going to be like this forever, though I know its not.
Every morning I read a devotional by the name of “Jesus Calling” written by Sarah Young. This morning while lying in bed I opened my book and this is what I read…
* Except each day exactly as it comes to you. By that I mean not only the circumstances of your day but also the condition of your body. Your assignment is to trust me absolutely, resting in My sovereignty and faithfulness. On some days, your circumstances and your physical condition feel out of balance. The demands on you seem far greater than your strength. Days like the present a choice between two alternatives- giving up or relying on Me. Even if you wrongly choose the first alternative. I will not reject you. You can turn to Me at any point and I will help you crawl out of the mire of discouragement. I will infuse My strength into you moment by moment, giving you all that you need for this day, Trust Me by relying on my empowering presence.
Psalm 42:5 Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
2 Corinthians 13:4 For to be sure, he was crucified in weakness, yet he lives by God’s power. Likewise, we are weak in him, yet by God’s power we will live with him in our dealing with you.
Jeremiah 31:25 I will refresh the weary and satisfy the faint.
I get the feeling like it or not I was going to have to get my butt out of bed and do my exercises. They hurt and to be honest I really did not want to do them. But I could continue to lay there or sit in a chair all day and not feel a bit better or get out of bed, do my exercises and work on healing.
So I did.
I turned on the radio and reluctantly started. A couple of sets in I realized I was doing much better than yesterday znd oddly the songs that were playing on the radio were perfectly matched to how I was feeling. The more I moved I felt better and I started singing along with the radio. I felt empowered and strong and full of thankfulness and I found myself having one of the best God moments I have had in a long time. A little bit later it dawned on me … I had just attended a worship service. Who would have thought I would have been sweaty and dirty doing leg lifts and stretches on my living room floor and attending one of the most awesome worship services I have ever attended. That goes to show we can have worship anywhere anytime. We don’t need a fancy building or to sit quietly for God to show up. He is always here and we can worship him anywhere we feel the urge.
I could end this blog here but this was not the end of the story. What happened next was the coolest thing.
After I was finished exercising I went back to the devotional because I decided I was going to share it on facebook. But when I opened my book the words were different. What happened??!! Did I dream up this whole thing? Had I lost my mind? Upon further investigation I realized I had read SEPTEMBER 8th instead of October 8th by mistake.
Its times like this that I see God the most. The times when He swoops in and rescues me. The times he throws Himself right in front of me and shows me that He is the one in charge. That what I look at as a mistake was really part of His plan. Mistake I read the wrong devotional? I think not, God does not make mistakes I truly think He wanted me to read September 8th today. My mistake, His plan.
This is still not the end of the story today. Since today really is October 8th I decided to read today’s reading
Here is today’s devotional…
* I LOVE YOU with an everlasting Love. The human mind cannot comprehend My constancy. Your emotions flicker and falter in the face of varying circumstances, and you tend to project your fickle feelings onto Me. Thus, you do not benefit fully from My unfailing Love. You need to look beyond the flux of circumstance and discover Me gazing lovingly back at you. This awareness of My presence strengthens you , as you receive and respond to MY Love. I am the same yesterday, today and forever! Let My Love flow into you continually. Your need for Me is as constant as the outflow of My Love to you.
Jeremiah 31:3 The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.
Exodus 15:13 In your unfailing love you will lead the people you have redeemed. In your strength you will guide them to your holy dwelling.
Hebrews 13:8 8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
I had to smile when I read that one It’s going to be a great day!