My Broken Hallelujah


The events of this past week are running though my head tonight.  I keep thinking about how this time last week it felt like everything was whirling out of control and my heart was aching in sorrow for someone I love.  I felt so overwhelmed by it all that when I went to church last Sunday morning I just sat in the back row feeling like I was watching the service in slow motion.  Tears kept welling up in my eyes and I tried really hard not to let them escape.  Several times I didn’t succeed at stopping the flow of tears and I had to leave the sanctuary to compose myself.  I remember feeling like there was just no way things could ever be good again.

I spent the next two days trying desperately to make my world stop spinning so fast. I kept giving it all up to God and then a few hours later I would take it back. I have no idea how many times I did that before I finally excepted the fact that things were out of my control, had never been in my control, and were not mine to control.  There was nothing at all I could do to help except pray, give it to God, and then let him keep it!

I have been hearing a song on the radio a lot lately called “Broken Hallelujah” by the Afters.

This past week every time I turned on the radio it seemed like that song would be playing.  Each time I heard it I always found myself singing it to God. It may sound strange but I just felt so overwhelmed with thankfulness for who He is that I would find myself throwing my hands in the air and singing at the top of my lungs.  Each time I sang that song I found peace. God kept meeting me right there in the middle of a song turned into a prayer.

“Broken Hallelujah”

By, The Afters

I can barely stand right now.
Everything is crashing down,
And I wonder where You are.

I try to find the words to pray.
I don’t always know what to say,
But You’re the one that can hear my heart.

Even though I don’t know what your plan is,
I know You’re making beauty from these ashes.

I’ve seen joy and I’ve seen pain.
On my knees, I call Your name.
Here’s my broken hallelujah.

With nothing left to hold onto,
I raise these empty hands to You.
Here’s my broken hallelujah.

You know the things that have brought me here.
You know the story of every tear.
‘Cause You’ve been here from the very start.

Even though I don’t know what your plan is,
I know You’re making beauty from these ashes.

I’ve seen joy and I’ve seen pain.
On my knees, I call Your name.
Here’s my broken hallelujah.

With nothing left to hold onto,
I raise these empty hands to You.
Here’s my broken hallelujah.

When all is taken away, don’t let my heart be changed.
Let me always sing Hallelujah
When I feel afraid, don’t let my hope be erased
Let me always sing Hallelujah.
Let me always sing Hallelujah.

I will always sing
I will always sing
Here’s my broken hallelujah.

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Today it’s been exactly a week since everything seemed to go out of control, but now I can see that everything was always in control and things are also looking up now.  Though they are far from being over things are moving toward a place of healing for all of those involved and I know its all in God’s hands.

So once again I will sing, “Hallelujah!”

How about you?  will you join me as I praise God today?

Are things swirling out of control?


I know it may sound strange but why not praise God right there where you are?


Praise him for who he is.


Praise him just because he is God.


Praise him right there in the middle of the storm.

Praise him even when you feel so broken you think things could never be put together again.

Praise him knowing that your loved ones are safe in his arms.

Praise him and know  that he has everything under control.


No matter what you are feeling right now…you can trust God and believe he is right beside you because he is!


Get on your knees and pray or throw your arms in the air and sing.  However you choose to praise him He will be  there.

Give God your broken Hallelujah today.


Thanks for reading,



Speaking to one another with psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit. Sing and make music from your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. ~ Ephesians 5:19-20


A Sister’s Cry

Sometimes things just don’t make sense. How can it be such a beautiful day and something so terrible be going on inside someone that they would try to take their own life? How can someone be hurting so bad that they no longer want to exist while at the same time others are on top of the world? How could I have missed it? Why did I not see the hurt or feel the pain? How could I have been so blind?

I asked the Jesus, “Why must there be so much pain? Why must there be death?”

He replied,

“I give healing and life, those who come to me will never die”

“I am the love that never leaves”

“I am the one who hears the cries of those who call”

“I am the one who will catch them when everything comes crashing down

“I am the strength when they can’t fight anymore”

“I am the hope when it feels like hope is lost”

     “Right now things may seem out of control but never forget that I am in control.

Yes! He is in control!

Right now

Right this moment

I lay my broken heart at his feet, reach my hands out and shout “Hallelujah!”

I will praise him because he deserves to be praised.

Right now things seem so terribly out of control but I know God is in control!

He is the hope.

He is the strength needed to fight the good fight.

When everything came crashing down he caught it all.

He heard my call.

He never leaves.

He is protector, healer, and almighty comforter.

He is love.

I have seen his power and I will continue to put all my hope in him.

I know He will hear the cries of those who are hurting.

He will reach down and wrap them his loving arms.

He will hold them, protect them and heal them.

He will give them peace.

Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. Hebrews 4:16

This is what I pray for today will you join me?


Butterflies in the Darkness

butterly1Yesterday as I was leaving work I noticed a Monarch butterfly sitting on the ground. Just as I decided to take it’s picture it decided it was time to fly around for a while, so I followed it around the parking lot snapping its picture each time it landed. I just loved watching it flutter about. It would flutter fast and then float for awhile and then sit somewhere looking as if it was going to stay put.  But just as soon as I would think it was going to stay still it would flutter around some more. It seemed so peaceful and so free. As I watched it fly around I got to thinking about butterflies and how they are so beautiful and how God created something so small but yet it can be so hugely beautiful.

Not knowing a whole lot about Monarch butterflies I decided I wanted to know more about them so when I got home I looked them up them up to see If I could find out more about them.  In my search I found out some pretty interesting stuff…If you are not a nature geek like me then you may want to skip the next few paragraphs :)

Do you know that the Monarch butterfly only lives in its adult butterfly form for about 2- 6 weeks and that it’s whole entire life cycle is only 6-8 weeks long?  I did not know this.

In it’s life cycle it goes from egg to caterpillar to chrysalis, pupa, and then butterfly all in that very short amount of time.

The beginning stage in its life which is the egg lasts for about 4 days, and then the egg hatches into a caterpillar which lasts for about 2 weeks. The caterpillar then attaches itself to a milkweed plant where it sheds its skin and then the left over skin hardens into a cocoon (chrysalis) where it stays (pupa) for 10 days.  After the 10 days it emerges as the adult butterfly which only lasts for 2 to 6 weeks.
Another interesting thing about the Monarch butterfly is that there are 4 generations inside of their life cycle.
March/April – 1st generation Monarchs are born in Northern United States and Canada.
May/June – 2nd generation is born
July/August – 3rd generation is born
Then this is the cool part…
In September/October the 4th generation Monarch is born but this generation does not die as fast as the other generations do. This generation migrates about 3000 miles South to Mexico or Southern California where they live for about 6-8 months and then In February or March they fly the 3000 miles back to the United States and Northern Canada where they mate, lay their eggs, and then it starts all over again!
Another thing about the Monarch Butterfly is that since it spends 10 days in its cocoon that means this insect spends about 1/5 of its life in darkness!  Spending time in a tight squished up dark space seems pretty awful to me but later it dawned on me that while the caterpillar is in the darkest time of its life that is where it is actually turning it into something very beautiful, a butterfly.  This place is also where he is being prepared to do the job he was created do….pollinate plants.

Then I also realized that in a way aren’t we people kind of like butterflies? We all go through times in our lives that seem dark and we all are always changing and growing.

I recently went through a pretty hard time in my life.

During this time I had been dealing with depression which was due to loss of mobility and pain due to surgery and arthritis in my knees and I also have had eye issues going on again. Though I had a lot of really good things going on in my life during that time I still had a lot of really hard days.

Like the caterpillar in its dark cocoon, I cocooned myself into my own dark place by trying my best to keep my pain and depression hidden from everyone.  I am not sure what it is about being a Christian and being sad but for some reason though I know I don’t have to be all happy all the time I still did not want to come across as a downer to those around me.  The few times I did dump it on someone I felt guilty like I may be dragging them down too because a lot of the closest people to me are going through a lot of their own struggles and the last thing they needed was to be burdened with mine.  So I tried my best to look to the joyful things in my life and most of the time I did find them.

Thinking about the butterfly made me realize something… while I was in that dark place of my life I too had been growing and changing… just like the butterfly I have been turning into something better and more beautiful and God has been preparing me for the job he created me to do by teaching me how to rely on him more and actually making my faith stronger.

During my dark time I spent a whole lot of time struggling with thoughts of things like “what is wrong with me that I can not get over this? I felt like everyone could see through me but really nobody ever acted like they did so most likely they did not. I also work at a church and I also have what I feel like is a good relationship with the Lord so that left me feeling like somehow maybe I should be able to get over this easier.  But when I didn’t I began to feel like maybe I deserved what was happening to me or maybe my faith was not strong enough. I felt close to God during all of this but at the same time I had days that I would wonder if he was really there and then he would always show me that he was.

I am sure my life seemed to look as if it was going good to everyone around me because I said it was good. I would have days that I felt joyful and thankful but then also I had days I could barely drag myself out of bed, it was a very confusing time.

I remember a time when old me would have thrown in the towel and went back to my old way of living and maybe had a drink or two… or three… or four to drown my sorrows away.  Thankfully God has changed that part of me and I never had the desire to do that.  I did know somehow that this is the life God wants me to live and that I just had to hang in there, keep on praying and wait on him to show me what was going on.

So every day I kept on going, I had prayer time almost every day.  There were some days that I felt like God did not show up but on most days when I had my prayer time he met me wherever I was at at that moment.  He always came through if I would let him.

Another thing I noticed during this time was that it always seemed like on my worst days God would always put someone in front of me who needed encouragement or love.  During those times is when I began to realize that each time I helped someone else for some reason I felt at peace. Gradually over time I began turning my focus off of me and trying to pour as much love as I could into other people and oddly the more that happened the more I began to realize that was exactly what God wanted me to do. I began to understand more and more that it’s easy to fall into a pit of despair and stay stuck in it down hiding in the darkness. But when we chose to climb up, even if it’s just a few small steps to help someone else we begin to see the light glowing at top. The more I saw that light the more I saw God’s plan.

Gradually over the past 10 months I have finally admitted to myself that God had been calling me into things that seem pretty scary to me. I had known a lot of this for well over a year but I chose to ignore it because truthfully I did not feel worthy or equipped for what he is asking me to do and I was scared.

Even though I thought I had been living my life for God I still had things I needed to surrender to him.

One of those things being who I depended on.

What I realize now is that when you have nobody but God you begin to depend on nobody except God.

When you are down like I was with my legs and can not run around shopping and doing busy work you have more time to read the Bible and talk to God. I spent a whole lot of this time down just learning how to be still. I tend to be the type of person who needs to fill empty space. If I am with someone and they don’t talk I will fill the silence with chatter, if I am at home alone I will do chores to stay busy. I never just sit and watch television; actually I don’t like television very much and if I do watch it I usually have to do something else at the same time. To just lie around and do nothing is really very hard for me.

Over the past 10 months after work most days I spent in the evening time lying around with my legs propped up and iced and during this time God was working on me.  During this time He has shown me what he wants me to do with my life, where I don’t belong and where I do belong. What is not important and what is important.  He has shown me that he has had me right where he wants me all along and that I needed to learn to trust him more and also trust that he has the power to equip me for anything he asks me to do.
Like a caterpillar that goes into a dark place to metamorphosis I think that is what I did. A caterpillar stays in its dark place while God works on it and prepares it to do the job it was created to do. While in the dark place it begins to change growing beautiful wings so that it can fly. Once the caterpillar turns into a butterfly it goes around pollinating plants so that they can grow seeds. They are very important in keeping the flow of seeds going; this is God’s plan for them.

And Like a butterfly God also has a plan for each one of us and sometimes I think we may have to be in the dark to be able to see his light. When a person comes out of the dark they are transformed into the beauty that God created them to be, so they can start flying from person to person, spreading Jesus just like the butterfly spreads pollen.

Since climbing out of my cocoon I have been feeling this sense of wanting to be even closer to God. I feel more aware of him in every second of my day now. I feel his presence and want to talk with him as much as possible. I know his plan for me involves Speaking in public, though I suffer from social anxiety and I can not memorize or remember a speech to save my life. I know this is where he wants me to be, without a doubt.

It seems as if everywhere I turn lately I am hearing a sermon about God using weak people to do his work. Even the Bible study class I am in right now is about that.  Though I don’t know the full plan yet I do feel very sure that I am where I am supposed to be right now.  I feel a closeness so different from what I have ever felt before.  I feel his love and I feel confident that his plan will unfold even more each day as I spend time with him and I finally feel at peace.

Note: I wrote what is written above about 3 weeks ago
About a week after I started writing it I was finally able to get an injection of Monovisc in my knee that is supposed to put gel in my knee where the cartilage is missing. Now Here I am 2 weeks after I had the shot and I am moving around a whole lot better and my constant knee pain is finally gone when I am not standing on them.  I am walking better and hopefully soon I will be walking without pain too.   I find it very interesting that when I finally started healing emotionally shortly after I began healing physically. I wonder…had my legs healed first if I would have realized that the time in the darkness was what was needed for me to be able to grow? Would I know that I can be joyful even in a dark place?  Would I know that even if my knees don’t heal I am still capable of doing anything God asks?  Looking back now though hard I am pretty sure this whole ordeal has been good for me.

With Jesus in your life anything can happen. Just like he turns the caterpillar into a beautiful butterfly He can also turn a messed up messy me into his own beautiful creation and he can also do that for you too!

With Jesus we get our wings, with him we learn to spread our wings and with him we also learn how to fly.

Thank you for reading today, and have a wonderful day,



P.S.  I would also like to thank Abby over at Abby’s Faith Walk for her encouraging post about depression.  I had been working on this post and many times wrote other posts about my struggles but never had the courage to post them.  When I saw her post last night I decided to go ahead and finish this up and post it.

After I wrote this post another blogger friend posted a very insightful and beautiful analogy using the butterfly that I thought you may like.  Click here to enjoy ->  A Whole New Creation by Karina at Karina’s Thought.


No Words

Lately a lot of people around me are suffering tremendously and it seems like I keep finding myself at a loss for words as to what to say to help comfort them.  I also find myself feeling so sad about their circumstances that I find myself becoming overwhelmed.   Just recently I felt so overwhelmed by this that I bought a book that I had heard would help me know how to deal with this sort of thing better.  I read in a book that it was not my job to take on another person’s burden or grief…that denying myself to do for others what they cannot do for themselves was showing the sacrificial love of Christ… Huh? Yes those were real words right out of the book and they made no sense to me.  What did make sense is that I felt those words were wrong and go against everything I have read in the Bible and it disturbed me terribly when I read that, it also disturbs me that this is a very popular Christian book with outstanding reviews.

Some people who read the book may choose to believe it but I decided to investigate some of the scripture they quoted that supposedly backed what they were teaching.  The more I investigated the more I realized that they had took a lot of the scripture and then used it around their own words to make it say what they were writing in this book.  Being still kinda new to the Bible this is hard for me to take and I do not know if they purposely are misleading people or if maybe I just do not understand it the way they do.

I have been thinking about this for quite some time now and decided that I think it is best for me to choose to believe what I feel like God wants me to see.  So I have decided to go with only what God has written in his book (The Bible) and what I feel the Holy spirit has put on my heart.  I do agree with them when they say we should give people up to God because it is true we do have to give people up to God because they do belong to him.  But I do not see how walking away when they are hurting will help them and that does not show the sacrificial love of Jesus.  The day I can shove someone off when they are hurting is a sad sad day. It would not only be the day I helped add to someone’s pain but also the day I would realize I was not doing the job God intended for me to do and that would burden my heart terribly.  It really bothers me that someone has written a book that tells people its okay to selfishly walk away from what God has put in front of them to do.  I am not saying we have to be a doormat but sometimes doing the work of God is inconvenient and will turn our own lives upside down but I believe we are called to help anyway.

Jesus gave everything for me so why would I think I could get by and not turn my own life upside down for other people?  Isn’t that what the Bible teaches us is to love God first and then to love our neighbor as we love ourselves? I don’t see it saying love ourselves first.

Mark 12:30-31 - Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: Love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no commandment greater than these.”


Matthew 22:37-40 – Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.  All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

Some people may think I am wrong… but anyway this is what I feel like God wants me to do.  I hope that the other people who read that book did not just take everything it said as truth without looking up the facts.

With that being said and because this post is not a book review here is what this post is really about….

What do I say that to someone who is in the middle of a crisis such as …watching a family member die or maybe they received a cancer diagnosis? I have no idea what to say that would make them feel better.

Yesterday I found myself with a person who was very sad and them being sad made me sad.  I wanted to help but did not have any idea what to say  that would help them to feel better.

Have you ever seen a person who was running away from God instead of running to God in a time of crises? Sometimes they will avoid going to church during those times. Have you ever wanted to tell someone that if they would come to church and be in fellowship with people who loved them that they would feel much better?  I truly do believe that most of the time person will feel better if they went to church, but the problem is how do say that to someone without sounding like I am scolding them for not coming to church? Besides a person does not have to be in church to find God… but for me being in church is what works best.

I think sometimes it is hard to know the right thing to say to comfort someone.  I tend to try to see the best things in a bad situation and want so bad to tell hurting people to try to find the joy in the bad situation and look toward that.  Though I know that is true and it works for me I don’t dare say that to someone who is hurting…unless I know that person well enough to know that is what works for them.

I think we Christians can be really annoying with stuff like that especially to those who are not Christians.  I know this to be true because that kind of stuff has been said to me and I will admit it….I was annoyed!

Back to yesterday….

So yesterday there I was with this very sad and distraught person feeling like I needed to say something brilliant… Something that would make them feel so much better and those annoying things … ‘look to the joy’… ‘come to church’… etc…etc…wanted to come popping out of my mouth.


Because I didn’t really have anything brilliant to say that will make them feel better.

And I never will have it…

Only Jesus has it…

I can’t fix it…

Only Jesus can fix it…

But how do I say this without offending them???

Maybe I really don’t have to say anything at all.  Maybe all I have to do is be there for them and listen to them instead of trying to fix it for them.

Could it be that they just needed a friend? Maybe to know someone will listen to them? To know that somebody cares?

Could it be that they just really need to know that it is okay to feel sad sometimes?

I get sad all the time.

Yes I said it, Christians get sad…. And guess what???

It is okay! Just because I have Jesus does not mean I am happy all the time.

Its okay for people to be sad because the truth is everyone gets sad, everyone gets angry; everyone hits that place of desperation from time to time where we just do not feel joyful.

People get sick, people die, people lose jobs, and relationships fall apart.  It’s true… sometimes some really rotten things happen.  We live in a messed up world and though I do know there is so much more that is good in this world than there is that is bad, please do not tell me about it when I am hurting! We should not make someone feel as if they should be ashamed for feeling sad.

How do we go about helping someone who is hurting?  The truth is I don’t really have the answer to that question.  All I do know is what does or does not work on me. I know I can’t do a whole lot to help someone other than pray and try my best to be there for them.

I do know that people do need to turn to Jesus when they are hurting and I think showing a person Jesus in action would work a whole lot better than just telling them about him. I also think most of all its important to let people know that it is okay to be sad and that Jesus knows they are sad and that he also feels their pain and he will be there with them the whole time and never let them go.

At times I think we all may feel like we are flailing around all alone but really we are never alone.  Jesus is always here with us and but sometimes a person can get so low that they may not see him so clearly because their pain is so thick.  I think that its during those times that he shows himself by sending us the kindness of a friend.

Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 – Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

Will you be a friend and help give someone hope by showing Jesus to them today?

Galatians 6:2 – Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.

You don’t need to worry about having the words, all you need is to just be there.

  1 John 3:18 - Dear children, let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth.

Thank you for reading and have a blessed day,


Today is the Day to Adore God

This week I got a letter from 7 year old Rose in Haiti. On one side of the letter was a question and answer area.

Today’s letter had this question - My favorite day of the week is _______ because ____________________.

Rose’s answer …

My favorite day of the week is Sunday because it is the day to adore God.20140626_155026

Oh how  much I adore her answer! and oh how much I adore God! <3

Today is Sunday… Do you adore God today?

I’m sure you do <3

Adore him today <3

And adore him every day <3

Praise the Lord.

Praise God in his sanctuary;

praise him in his mighty heavens.

Praise him for his acts of power;

praise him for his surpassing greatness.

Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet,

praise him with the harp and lyre,

praise him with timbrel and dancing,

praise him with the strings and pipe,

praise him with the clash of cymbals,

praise him with resounding cymbals.

Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.

Praise the Lord. Psalm 150

This is the day the Lord has made; We will rejoice and be glad in it.  Psalm 118:24

Happy Sunday to you,





Thankful For Pain???!!

I never thought I would be thankful for pain.
The shot I had this afternoon to numb my knee for the Monovisc injection is still working and I just realized how good it feels to be pain free. I find it interesting that before the arthritis got to my knees I never felt thankful for not having pain. But now after living with constant pain for 10 months I see things differently. Right this minute I have a glimpse of what I used to live every single day of my life and never noticed. Tonight I am thankful for the pain because it showed me how much I had to be thankful for that I never knew I had. I know eventually the numbness from the shot is going to wear off but hopefully the lesson I learned will not. It feels so good right now to have a break from the pain and I am hoping the Monovisc injection will work and eventually take it away completely. But for right now I will just live right here in this moment and be thankful for this wonderful gift.

Thank you Father for all the things you have given me every day that I never noticed or thanked you for. I pray that you will keep opening my eyes and helping me see you more clearly as I learn to be the person you created me to be.
Love, T

The Easy Way


Have you ever noticed that it’s the hardest things we have to do that usually make us feel better?

Each morning when I wake up I find myself lying on my side curled into a ball with stuck knees.  The first thing I have to do is force myself to straighten my knees and do about 5 minutes of stretching exercises then get out of bed and do some more exercise.  Usually it’s the bike or Elliptical and believe me when I say that this is not my favorite way to start the day!

Why? Because for me exercise is hard and it hurts but it is what I have to do to make my arthritic knees feel better.   So I choose to do it and when I am finished I’m much less stiff and am ready to get on with my day.

I wish I could say I make that choice every day but some days I am lazy and I don’t and those are the days I’m  barely able to move the rest of the day.

For me exercise is not always easy but by taking what seems like the harder way actually ends up making the rest of the day much easier for me.

So here is my thought for the day….

Each day we are faced with choices some are easy and some are hard…What would happen if you took the harder choice today?

The harder choice may be that you have to try something that seems painful such as exercise but there are other choices to make that are hard too.  Things such as speaking in public or starting that new class God has been prompting you to start? How about that mission trip you want to go on but think it would be scary? Maybe you need to forgive someone who you don’t think deserves to be forgiven.  Maybe the hard thing for you is just something as simple as opening your mouth and speaking up about Jesus to the friend who does not know him?

How many times has an opportunity came up that you knew you should take the harder choice but you passed by choosing the easy way for fear of failing or not wanting to face the pain or extra work that it may cause?  Any bodybuilder will tell you they were not born with a sculpted body.  It took a lot of year’s of pain and hard work for them to get that way.  I remember years ago I had shirt I wore to exercise class that said no pain no gain. I truly believe we will never ever gain the joy of we are meant to have if we never take that chance or struggle though the pain of working hard to achieve that seemingly out of reach goal.

So how about giving the harder way a try today?

Taking the easy way may seem much more simpler and safe, but in the end choosing the hard way will eventually lead to the place where the blessings are found.

If you are traveling down a hard road today hang in there, you’re on your way to discovering that you are capable of finishing the race and attaining the prize.

Don’t miss out on the blessings in your life by taking easy way.

Have a wonderful day,



Philippians 4:13 ~ I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Those Aren’t Weeds

20140614_120449I looked out my kitchen window Saturday and noticed that along the edge of the woods there were a bunch of wildflowers growing. Upon sharing my new discovery with my husband he informed me that those wild flowers were also growing along the side of our house.  So I decided to walk over and take a look. Every year I spend a lot of time “weeding” my gardens, this year I haven’t weeded and this is what happened. (See Photos)


Had I weeded the garden all these beautiful Black-Eyed Susan would have been pulled out and I would have never known that the weeds I had been pulling out all these years were actually beautiful flowers.

This is yet another discovery of how God has things under control even if I think things are a mess.

And here I thought all the gardening depended on me … :)


God never ceases to amaze me.

Have a wonderful day today!




Eye Issues Today

I have a new black spot in my vision today.  I seems like I should be used to this stuff by now but every time I have a new spot I have panic on and off for a few days, until eventually I get used to it and don’t notice it anymore.

I try really hard not to be afraid each time this happens but no matter how hard I try I am still afraid. It’s really hard not to be afraid when there is a black spot flashing and floating around in the way of everything I look at.

Most of the day today I have had panic when peace is what I really wanted more than anything. I kept telling myself that the peace will come and I know it will….it always does.  Just sometimes it takes longer than others.

So now its late and I’m still praying and waiting for the peace to come.

While I’m waiting I will keep leaning on Jesus, trusting He will show me the way out of this fear and to His place of peace once again.

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Thank you for reading,

Lay Your Worries at His Feet


Lay all your worries at the feet of Jesus today, he will save you.

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