I’m overwhelmed by the beauty you put before me this morning.
Beauty I never expected to see
As I walked past the window early this morning I happened to notice a purple colored haze caused by the sun rising over the fog covered woods in my back yard.
As the sun came up the fog began to lift and I saw the trees begin to change color before my eyes.
The woods changed from dull grey to bright shades of green, white and purple the flowers of springtime burst forth tearing away from their winter brown.
As I watched this magnificent display, the fog also began to lift away from my eyes.
Your peace began washing over me as I felt your assurance that there is never anything to fear because it is not by sight that I walk it is by faith, My faith in you.
Through all the debris and messiness I can still see you.
You will be here always and forever.
I will walk by faith today
I will walk by faith every day
Though things look different to me now, I still see you, bolder and brighter than I ever have before.
Your protective arms have surrounded me, clearing away the fog and debris until your face is the only thing see.
Thank you Jesus!
For we walk by faith, not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7
Today I visited a new Physical Therapist. My doctor had told me that this guy loves what he does and that he was good at it. Since I have been to physical therapy before and it did not work I was a little skeptical but then also a tiny bit optimistic because I was told he specializes in helping people get mobile again who are very difficult cases.
He seemed very nice and at the beginning he did some bending around on my legs and then he warned me that what he was going to do next was going to hurt. A few minutes later I found myself clenching my teeth and thinking maybe I had made a mistake by coming here, he wasn’t kidding THIS HURT BAD! When he was finished ‘torturing’ me He said, “okay now get up, walk around the room and tell me how you feel.” When I got up and started walking suddenly I noticed my knees were bending! And they actually felt better! They were not perfect but overall my legs felt much much better than they have felt in months. We did a few more painful exercises and then as I was leaving I happily made another appointment for this coming Thursday.
Can you imagine?… I actually wanted to come back after all the pain he had just put me through!
I realized that what we did today though it was a whole lot of pain, when the pain was over I felt a whole lot better and I want to get better and eventually this will help me to stay better. If I had not persevered through the pain I would not have gotten to feel the wonderful outcome.
Though today what I was feeling was physical pain this whole ordeal with my knees has been a lot of mental pain for me also. I was beginning to feel defeated and like I was never ever going to get better. This knee stuff has been going on for months and getting worse and worse.
Today I walked into the gym feeling pretty weak and down but I walked out feeling stronger and very hopeful. Now several hours later a lot of the pain and stiffness is back but I still feel very optimistic about my future as far as walking correctly and without severe pain again someday.
Today I learned that no matter how bad pain may seem if we keep pushing through it in the end we will feel better. I am not sure that the pain will ever completely go away, but just pushing through it is a huge start and I now see a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel.
I also know that I am stronger now because of it and each time I go back I will continue to grow even more stronger. If I hadn’t pushed through would have never got to see prize at the end. Had I given up I would have left feeling the way I went in and I would have missed the joy.
If you are going through pain today, remember there is always hope. Even if it seems way bigger than you can handle remember nothing is too big for God. So give whatever it is to him and don’t ever give up!
Thank you for reading,
James 1:2-4 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. (NIV)
The storm is raging strong and furious all around. I desperately try to find my way out but feel as if I’m being overtaken by the pounding wind and rain. As the fury around me rages harder, fear begins to surround me, threatening to knock me off my feet. Just as I feel as if I am about to give up, suddenly your hand reaches out, catching me, steadying me, Holding me up. Your voice whispers softly telling me to trust…I believe. I know that no matter how strong the storms of life are, You are stronger. Though the storm is still raging I feel at peace under the shelter of your protective arms.
He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection. Psalm 91:4 (NLT)
Recently I have been told by several people that they are having a hard time figuring out what their purpose in life is. I too have had times that I have wondered what my purpose in life is.
Could it be that the purpose of our lives is already there but we just don’t always see it?
I have a friend who once spent a lot of time ministering to me. When I was searching for answers about God, this person spent a lot of time answering questions and sending me emails and other stuff about him. I often think about how that person changed my life by taking the time to do that. What that person did may not seem very big to them, but to me it was HUGE. Actually it was so huge it was the difference between life and death.
When someone’s life on earth ends they either go on to live eternally in Heaven or they go to Hell…death. To me that’s pretty huge and now thanks to that person living out their God given purpose I will live forever.
Things that seem ordinary here on Earth are extraordinary by God’s standards and should be by ours.
God’s church is not a building the church is us. We may go into a building to worship God with other Christians but what we do outside of that building is what matters the most.
We could very easily spend so much time searching for God’s purpose for our lives that we miss it while it’s standing right there in front of us.
Isaiah 43:7 everyone who is called by my name, whom I created for my glory, whom I formed and made.
Our purpose in life is to bring glory to God… Period.
How do we do that?
We do it by being sensitive to the people God has placed around us and then show them Jesus in our actions.
Pay attention to the person who’s hurting and needs a friend and then take the time to be their friend.
Ask someone how they are today, and then take time to wait for the answer. One of my pet peeves is people who use the question ‘how are you?‘ in a greeting but when I open my mouth to tell them the answer, they are already walking away. Why not just say hello and skip the question if you don’t really want to know the answer?
Actually look at the people you meet on the streets around you, have you noticed lately in our society the amount of people who walk around not looking at each other?
Give a smile to a stranger; it may be the only smile they get today. The other day I read on a friend’s Facebook page that he smiled at someone and that they told him his smile was a gift and then they thanked him for it. To think that something so simple as a smile may have been that friend’s purpose for the day and also that it may have changed someone else’s day for the better is pretty huge. And now let’s add another thought to that?….I am also pretty sure that the person who thanked my friend for the smile in turn changed my friend’s day also. Could it be that he filled his purpose that day too??… how cool is that?
Our purpose is right here all around us every day. We should slow down and try not to be in such a rush or be filling our lives with so much busyness that there is no time hear the voice of God or see the opportunities he has placed in front of us.
The opportunities are plenty, don’t miss them!
It really seems pretty simple doesn’t it? Then I wonder why we make it so hard?
The Parable of the Good Samaritan
25 On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. “Teacher,” he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?”
26 “What is written in the Law?” he replied. “How do you read it?”
27 He answered, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’”
28 “You have answered correctly,” Jesus replied. “Do this and you will live.”
29 But he wanted to justify himself, so he asked Jesus, “And who is my neighbor?”
30 In reply Jesus said: “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he was attacked by robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. 31 A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. 32 So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. 33 But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him.34 He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, brought him to an inn and took care of him. 35 The next day he took out two denariiand gave them to the innkeeper. ‘Look after him,’ he said, ‘and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.’
36 “Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?”
37 The expert in the law replied, “The one who had mercy on him.” Jesus told him, “Go and do likewise.”
At the Home of Martha and Mary
38 As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. 39 She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. 40 But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”
41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”
That was just my thought for the day…
Crushing weight squeezes my chest threatening to suffocate me. My Heart is pounding so loud I hear the roar of my blood pumping in my ears. The terror is so real I feel as if I want to run away but there is no where to run. There is nowhere to run because a person can’t hide when the terror is inside of their own brain.
That is how I feel when I have a panic attack. Panic attacks are not fun at all. They sneak up silently waiting for just the smallest window of opportunity to slip in and steal my sanity.
If you have ever had a panic attack I am sure you know just how this feels if you haven’t then you can’t even begin to guess. It doesn’t take much to set a panic attack in motion and once one sets in they are hard to get rid of. There have been days that I have even found myself having a panic attack that I will have a panic attack. I know that sounds crazy and it’s a vicious cycle.
For the past few years I have had some eye problems. Most days I don’t think about them at all but then there are the days that I have a new symptom or even the usual flickering or the spider webby looking things will set me into a panic. I start thinking that I am going blind and if I close my eyes I still see the flickers. At times this gets me so upset and the panic gets so deep that I can’t think strait. Those are the days I need a friend but at the same time I don’t want to tell anyone. The few times I have told someone after it was all over I found myself feeling stupid and ashamed. There are times I have found myself wanting to go hide…. but hide where? Especially when you don’t know what you are hiding from? You can’t hide from panic.
It is so hard to understand how a person can be scared of what seems like nothing.
But that nothing is really something to me and I just can’t tell it to go away…
…though I wish it were so easy.
Philippians 4:6-7 says, Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. I have found myself reciting that verse over and over and praying to God to carry me through the grips of panic that threaten to take away my sanity. These are the times that I know that without Jesus I could have never made it through.
The radio station in my town plays this song by Josh Wilson a lot (YouTube Video below), sometimes I feel like I could have written the words because I have felt so much of what he talks about in the song. I even read his story and found out that he recites the same scripture in his prayers that I do.
Lately I find myself telling a lot of personal and private stuff here on this blog and today I really don’t have an ending to this story or really know the reason for writing it. Whether it’s a vent or maybe its just to let someone else who has this problem know that they are not crazy and to not be ashamed or feel embarrassed and most of all to know that they are not alone. There are other people who have this too, they just don’t always talk about it.
I realized today that I am who I am and it’s okay if others don’t understand what’s going on with me. God does understand me and that is all that matters. If not for him I don’t know how I would make it through those panicky days.
Tonight I heard this song on the radio and then later stumbled across the video on YouTube. I got teary eyed as I listened because it got me to thinking about how much my life has changed in the past 4 years.
Enjoy Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone) by Chris Tomlin
I love the words….
The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below,
Will be forever mine.
Will be forever mine.
You are forever mine.
My chains are gone
I’ve been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, amazing grace
Lord thank you for your amazing love, mercy and grace. Without you I really don’t know where I would be right now. Amazing grace…how sweet the sound…that saved a wretch like me…I once was lost…but now I’m found…was blind…but now I see…
I didn’t write many of the words in this post tonight but feel them as if they could have been mine. The video along with the words touched me deep inside my soul and I hope they touch you too.
Have a blessed evening, T